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June 2014 - May 2015

I’ll Tell You My Sins and You Can Sharpen Your Knife
: Mac and Dennis get unrealistically domestic.

22 Short Fics for Rhonda MacDonald: A character study. Part one of It’s Never Cloudy in Philadelphia.

you will be the death of me: The first step is cleaning the knife. She keeps a carving knife special for occasions like this, locked away in a drawer with her own psychological file. It shines when it’s unearthed, sharp, and rarely used, but Denise likes to clean it anyway. She likes to be able to see her reflection in the stainless steel blade. Part two of It’s Never Cloudy in Philadelphia.

Charlie Killed the Health Inspector: Co-authored with singingtomysoul. Charlie takes matters into his own hands when the health inspector, appalled by Paddy’s Pub’s terrible standards of cleanliness, attempts to shut down the bar. Unfortunately, this means that the gang now has to deal with hiding a dead body, evading the police, and trying not to kill each other as they process that they’ve murdered someone else.

The 'No Homo' series: A remarkable MacDennis series that explores how toxic masculinity interplays with internalized homophobia. . .just kidding it's Mac and Dennis fucking each other while trying to justify why it's not gay.

Rhonda Fights Gay Marriage and Denise Gets Divorced: Marriage goes to the forefront of everyone's minds when Rhonda runs into an old friend, Jaime, whose spouse is a woman. Rhonda sets out to save the institution; everyone else demonstrates why no one in the gang should go anywhere near a marriage certificate.

Dennis Reynolds: Power, Masochism, and the Nature of the Cumslut: "Kim, come here, I wrote you a three page treatise on why Dennis Reynolds is a cumslut."

Schrödinger's Kiss: If two guys kiss and no one talks about it, is it still gay?

after the last midtown show: Dennis and Mac kiss at midnight on New Year's Eve, 1993.

Dennis Reynolds, Queerness, and Toxic Masculinity: My long-awaited dissertation on why Dennis Reynolds is good queer representation.

I've Become So Numb: Dennis writes self-insert fanfiction about "Dan Rynolds" banging Patrick Bateman.

i feel numb most of the time: On her worst days, the ideas other people have about Denise Reynolds are all that keep her tethered to the notion that she is actually here.

swear to god the devil made me do it: Dennis slid his hand over to Mac’s, and squeezed it tight. “We don’t need to talk about this or analyze it too much. Let’s just. . .keep quiet for the rest of the night. Allow the moment to be what it is." A series of short fics about Mac and Dennis.

Dennis Reynolds: Not Crazy, Misunderstood: After letting some possibly damning details slip about my personal life, I have decided to engage with them rather than trying to cover them up. Mystery lends itself to filling in the gaps with ridiculous things. It is time to tell my story - feel grateful, dear followers, that you get to read this before the publication of my autobiography: Dennis Reynolds: How One Man Blossomed into a God.

The Gang Gets Omegaversed: A shitty crack fic.

Checking In

hang your hat at somebody else’s house: Something is deeply wrong with the world and it’s making Dennis very sick. 1200 words.

love me cancerously: Dennis visits Dee after she’s been institutionalized for setting her roommate on fire. 900 words.

i will blow air into your open mouth: Mac didn’t always check in every day. 1400 words.

blood, guts, and chocolate cake: Tomorrow she’ll go to school with her head high. Tomorrow she’ll do her eyeliner just right and she won’t eat lunch. Tomorrow she won’t cry in the bathroom and she won’t hide from Bill Ponderosa and she won’t answer to the name Aluminum Monster. Tomorrow the ever-present revving engine inside her will slow down enough for her to be poised, kind, and calm. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow. 2000 words.

put a little love here in my void: On bad days, when Dennis has transformed from himself into a coiled spring of pure rage, the only thing that helps is to restrain him. 500 words.

I Feel So Proud When the Reckoning Arrives: In the aftermath of Charlie Rules the World, Dennis remains convinced that he is God and sets out to proselytize the gospel of himself. (incomplete) 4000 words.

tell me that you’re alright: “Mac,” Dennis said. “Do you ever miss having feelings?” 7600 words.

Den Bortkomne Sauen: When his friends ask how his layover in Fargo was, he doesn’t mention the sky or the snow or the rum or the beauty of feeling his entire body grow as numb as the rest of him. He simply says, “North Dakota changed me,” and lets them piece together the rest of the story for themselves. 1600 words.

August 2015-December 2016

The Gang Impersonates Some Superheroes: Eternal WIP. Dark Avengers crossover that never really got off the ground.

hell is other people
: Choking kink in hell. No, I don't know what's wrong with me either.

you bring me down (hey I'm not listening): Follow-up to Mac and Dennis Move to the Suburbs.

cheaply put together like a slasher film : Was supposed to be a five times fic about Dennis turning forty but it turned out to just be a ficlet about Dennis killing a woman on his fortieth birthday.

You Are Dennis : Pretentious poem fic based on 'You Are Jeff' by Richard Siken.

Tallahassee : Mac and Dennis hit the road.

Never Thought I'd Live Past Twenty: Maureen Ponderosa ficlet.

land on you (like a sucker punch): For want of a nail AU where Mac and Dennis never met. Mac is a petty criminal and Dennis is a fucked up rich boy. They meet while Dennis is trying to enact rape kink in an alley. It's way too long, very strange, and I'm still not sure if it has too many feelings or just not enough porn.

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 So I've been MIA since the sixth for a pretty decent reason - I've been traveling cross country! We traveled from North Dakota to New Jersey starting six days ago and arrived this evening. I'm staying at my grandparent's house and I finally am alone for the first time in a week. I did some Abnormal Psych homework on the trip, but I mainly read comics:

Hawkeye (2003) - He begins the solo series literally riding a motorcycle around the USA in search of the best chili. He runs into a stripper being harassed by this dude and the sixth (?) issue culminates with some Vietnam secret that was so bad people killed themselves and it involved Jesus. To be honest, it became pretty incoherent but it was worth the read just to giggle at Hawkeye the suave ladies man when for most of his run he is either pouty and impulsive about women or super awkward. I liked the flashbacks of the first six issues; they were really effective. Something I find hilarious is that every Hawkeye solo has flashbacks to his past, some of them retreading the exact same material as if to say 'We know people don't usually read Hawkeye comics so we're willing to hold your hand in the hopes that you keep reading this one before it dies like all the others.' The plot was pretty forgettable in the last two issues and the art was way worse. Unnecessary TnA abound in all of them but what can you do. Ah my ridiculous son. I love you so.

Avengers A.I. - I didn't finish this one yet because I got really excited about Avengers Academy and forgot but this one was good. I specifically sought it out after learning that Hank Pym was finally assigned bipolar disorder as his Thing and it was really well written for, well, almost any other media about bipolar disorder that I've seen. The rest of the story was fun and enjoyable but that was really the standout bit for me. As for Hank, I know he has his issues (though his recent writing is phenomenal about them) and possibly I won't like him in earlier titles but I still don't think any problems he might have no matter how bad they are negate how wonderful this piece of writing is. Also I eat trash like candy so I'll probably end up liking him anyway.

Avengers Academy - I read all 40 issues of this like as fast as I could. Probably fifteen issues a day. This series was really incredible, diverse, and kind of thinky. I really liked the questions about superheroism that it raised and I found myself often agreeing with both sides of difficult issues or disagreeing with people who were supposed to be good guys because the opponents raised good points. The teenagers and relationships within were really realistically written. I thought some of the queer stuff was a little on the nose but even still having three queer members of the cast, two of them main characters and one of them bisexual, is nothing to shake my head at for sure. The treatment of trauma and mental illness in this series is incredible too. Whenever I thought the story might be lagging it picked right back up again. I know events can be really hard to write around but this series did it beautifully through not one but two of them. Honestly the world is so #blessed that this series exists.

Incidentally Hawkeye just shows up around the midpoint and is like 'I'm teaching now' and then just sort of hangs out mostly near the background for the rest of the time. 'Oh yeah and Hawkeye was there in the back left of the panel,' is basically his whole life. He is perpetually roman centurion number two except for when he complains at which point he gets ridiculous stories written about him where he gets kidnapped and fridged and rescued by other people. I exaggerate because he is heroic too very often but. He is still very ridiculous.

Black Widow - I didn't complete this series yet but I think it's a pretty terrific series of near- one shots about Natasha. I love the art and how expressive it is, particularly with Natasha's face. Her outfit here is much more realistic and very practical for a spy of any gender and her anatomy is very proportional. I love her cat and the way she beat up her neighbor's boyfriend for being abusive. Hawkeye was there in one issue because of course he was and I loved it.

Dark Avengers I - I tried reading Dark Avengers I before I left for New Jersey and despised all six issues. I just wanted to set up and understand Dark Avengers II because Trick Shot was on there but damn reading Dark Avengers I was NOT worth it. I don't know how to articulate it but the treatment of mental illness during the Dark Reign under Norman Osborne was incredibly unsettling to me as a mentally ill person, particularly because Osborne has a great case of 'makes-me-uncomfortable-itis' that permeates the whole series. It's a damn shame because the whole concept of the series is fascinating and I really wanted to enjoy it.

Thunderbolts - I heard that Dark Avengers I was almost directly ripped off from Thunderbolts from several years previous and that a character with PTSD was treated much better in it. However, Thunderbolts was almost as disappointing and skeevy as Dark Avengers so I gave that title up too. Again, a concept that seemed absolutely fascinating but with the skeeviest execution ever.

All New Marvel Now! Secret Avengers - Such a delightful and quirky little series. Really unique art which is why it stood out to me in the first place. The plot is fairly intriguing and I love how Hawkeye is basically the GOB Bluth of it all. Though I thought it was interesting when Maria Hill said that Clint acts incompetent to not seem like a threat. I think this can definitely be true but I also think she may be more dismissive of her colleague's inner lives than she realizes. Sometimes it thinks it's funnier than it is but overall I was very charmed. Just finished reading issue ten last night which is the last one available on Unlimited for now.

Secret Avengers (2013-2014) - Whooo boy. This series is dumb as fuck. The whole plot of the second issue is literally Al Qaeda needs to be stopped from getting their hands on dark magic and teleportation technology. I was like........you do realize that that organization......is a Muslim......Organization. Also there was weird shit going on with memory nanochips that meant (I think?) Hawkeye was being systematically beaten up by SHIELD agents and then his memory was wiped so that he thought it was bad guys doing it. I felt bad for him because that means SHIELD shot him in the stomach and stabbed him twice until he thought he was dying twice but who better to torture and kidnap than Hawkeye. Love me some Hawkeye though and I've read a lot worse for his sake *coughHawkeyeBlindspotcough*

House of M - I didn't read much of this yet but overall I find the concepts really intriguing. 

Scattered thoughts on comics in general:

-I'm really surprised by how much crossover there is with the X-men and how human and mutant relations permeates the entire Marvel universe. This is entirely absent from how the MCU is (as X-men are copyrighted by Fox) and the absence now seems really jarring.

-Speaking of mutants, I find it really fascinating how some people have superpowers and some people are mutants and the former still get better treatment than the latter despite some of their powers being exactly the same.

-Characters just showing up places does not stop being delightful to me. One issue of Avengers Academy had Magneto just show up for one issue and then leave.

-So many people are Avengers that I wouldn't be shocked if one time someone's favorite toaster was pronounced an Avenger.

-There is a frustrating lack of women in the MCU and I am angry that Maria Hill has been demoted.

6/6/15

Jun. 6th, 2015 10:50 am
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Good morning, dreamwidth. More accurately, tired morning. I went out to Denny's and drank coffee until midnight and then stayed up until 6am and woke up at 10 am. I was like


Anyway I had a really fucked up dream, man. I dreamed I was on this ride at Marvel theme park where the only thing that went over your legs was like a blanket and then when the ride started it turned out that it was a roller coaster that went upside down. A young girl fell out of it and got really hurt. They rushed her to the medical place which I guess was nearby and you could hear her screaming and crying - it was so loud. I felt really useless because I didn't know how to help her when she was in so much pain and shame because her screams and the thought of her dying frightened me. It was so vivid and seemed so real.

The night before last night I had a recurring dream where I randomly run into an ex boyfriend at a party who treated me really poorly back in high school and it turns out that we've both grown and changed now that we're older and we were able to be friends. We both admitted that our mistakes were the mistakes of children and that we were too old to repeat them. I always wake up from those dreams a little sad because it is not real, even though it isn't what I want anyway. 

In other news last night I saw someone on the tumble (because I was browsing Hawkeye blogs at four am) talking about Clint pre-Fraction like he 'got away with everything by mansplaining' and I'm so done with the internet I swear to god. Clint often runs away from things out of a stupid need for excessive independence and sometimes he does try to take the easier way out if he thinks the situation is hopeless and sometimes his very obvious mental illness causes him to attempt to isolate himself but people not letting him get away with those things isn't people not letting him 'mansplain' out of situations. It's the very real frustration that people have towards mentally ill people who aren't getting better. I think I would rant more about this but I found a really nice article that explains my feelings about Fraction's Clint way better than I could have done. He also pointed some things out to me that I hadn't noticed before.

https://dorkforty.wordpress.com/tag/clint-barton/

I find it interesting too that Clint IS drinking more at this point and actually Barney is as well. Their father was an alcoholic (and is one of the main things we know about him) and so it's both sad and makes sense for these characters to fall back on alcohol when they're in a bad way.

I think I wanna reread Fraction's Hawkeye again after reading a few more comics (related or unrelated) because the first time I loved it, the second time I wasn't sure how I felt about some parts, and the third time I think I'll really get to dig into it and look at the art and pick up things I missed. 

In other news I went up from 199.7 to 200.4 today :P I went over my calorie limit yesterday because my family ate at olive garden and my food app lied to me about the number of calories in something. I went to olive garden's website later and it gave me the true calorie count and then I was really pissed off. I need to go exercising today and eat less...losing weight is really frustrating and my mom says she is 'on a diet' but she keeps enabling me to make unhealthy choices because there was nothing in the house to eat and she was stress eating.

Journal!

Jun. 5th, 2015 06:24 pm
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 So anyway outside of Hawkeye I have more musings about my life. I finally lost over ten pounds! I am now 199.7 which is amazing - I thought I would never escape the 200s. My hair is growing and today my mom re-parted it and it looks really good. It goes down most of my neck which seems so little since I've been growing it out since OCTOBER but we can't all get what we want immediately. I feel a lot better about myself and my appearance even with just ten pounds gone. I just want the body that my mental illness took away from me. I want to look and feel young.

I've been trying to figure out how to get into Physician Assistant school and I learned that basically my grades are not good enough and my experience probably won't cut it either when I get it. SO I've decided I'm going to go for my RN instead. I definitely have the grades to get into that program and if I work in nursing for a few years I think if I want to move forward my grades won't matter so much. Life is confusing and hard bros but you gotta make your own stuff work out.

Taking Medical Terminology and Abnormal Psych right now and I'm adding Anatomy and Physiology on in a few weeks. I'm going to be traveling while taking two of those classes which will be interesting. I gotta take a test in one of them tonight :P
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I've basically been binge reading every Hawkeye solo (or duo) comic since 2010 after backtracking from Hawkeye 2012 and All New Hawkeye and........I have a lot of feelings about them and him and what it all means to me and why I identify with him so much lately. I also have some feelings about how he gets treated by others and how he isolates himself having backread his comics. Because I thought in the beginning that I was so intensely attached to him for ~mysterious reasons~ but it's actually very not surprising when I step back and examine him as a character and look at his story in Hawkeye 2012 in the aftermath of Hawkeye & Mockingbird, Widowmaker, and Hawkeye: Blindspot. 

I guess one of the main things that he and I have in common (and one of the things I have been working on) is independence to the point of ridiculousness. It's different than learned helplessness (which unfortunately many of those close to him view his shutdown as) because it's more based out of pride and this feeling that if you just tried hard enough you wouldn't need anybody or anything. You could have the help of superheroes on your side if you'd just ASK, but the asking is like pulling teeth. In Hawkeye 2012, it takes until he is at his literally lowest point before he admits he needs help, and by that point it's too late in a lot of ways. Grills is dead, his complex is physically forced to vacate, and Barney is shot dead too very shortly after he admits to needing help.

It's been a long, slow road to recovery for me since Angie left and I had to recover from her absence and from all she put me through before. She, wittingly or unwittingly, encouraged this trait within me, and it was not until I hit the lowest point I'd had in four years that I admitted to needing long-term psychiatric help. And then! I proceeded to go off one of my medications as soon as I got in good with my doctor which just goes to show that the battle against your own stubbornness is unending. In my own (and Clint's) case, the stubbornness that we've had since childhood unfortunately extends through suffering our own mental illnesses alone.

I guess another thing I'm getting at is I have seen people way overhyping Hawkeye 2012 and then long-term Hawkeye fans saying that they feel like Hawkeye 2012 isn't a 'real' Hawkeye comic. And after backreading his comics, I actually get where they are coming from. Hawkeye 2012 ISN'T a regular Hawkeye comic. But in the aftermath of his PTSD, breakup with his wife, and flirtation with his blindness and thus the loss of all he views as valuable to him, it makes sense to me for him to withdraw and for him to sort of become this black hole of mistakes, regrets, depression, and failure. It's certainly not the most fun thing to read after those comics (although the art is a whole lot less blinding and awkward than Hawkeye: Blindspot, christ) but I do think getting to this point was inevitable for him. I can also understand why those around him are very frustrated with him and how low he has sunk, though it does seem a bit unfair in some points. But when you're low it's still hard for those around you to not be frustrated because they know you can do better and be better.

In the end, I do like Lemire's All New Hawkeye better because it's more fun and builds a lot on some of the really interesting stuff Fraction set up, but it still wouldn't be complete without this lowest point happening. Darkest before the dawn and all that. Side note: I also miss his dumb purple costume though I do understand that it was very outdated and changing it to be more similar to the movie makes sense. 

Side note: other things I have in common with Hawkeye are we are both cute goofy failbots who can be too mouthy for our own good and who would totally get kidnapped first out of perceived weakness in most situations. You may hereafter call me Hawkeye........not really but if you want to I wouldn't be against it.

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Summary: He feels free on the edges of these small towns, unafraid that people will judge him for how he behaves or what his past is. It’s just him, his performances, the vast, sprawling prairie, and the sky. Clint is fifteen but he feels endless, as much a part of the landscape as the yearly blizzards and the miles of sunflowers they pass by as they move from town to town, never staying anywhere too long. In which Clint and Bruce are both from the Midwest and connect over the place that they call home.

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe with a dash here and there of comics canon that I thought fit into the characterization of MCU Clint and Bruce

Pairing: Bruce/Clint at the very end

Content Warnings: Child abuse, Implied underage sex with one party being much older than the other, Dissociation

Link on ao3

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Summary: They say being a woman is a double-edged sword, but it’s two knives: one sharp, one rusty. Pick a knife. You can’t always choose the one that’s clean. Inspired by 15 ways to stay alive by Daphne Gottlieb.

Fandom: Veep

Pairings: Amy Brookheimer/Dan Egan

Rating: Teen

Content Warnings: bipolar disorder, anxiety, eating disorder, lots of talking about knives

Link on ao3

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hang your hat at somebody else’s house: Something is deeply wrong with the world and it’s making Dennis very sick. 1200 words.

love me cancerously: Dennis visits Dee after she’s been institutionalized for setting her roommate on fire. 900 words.

i will blow air into your open mouth: Mac didn’t always check in every day. 1400 words.

blood, guts, and chocolate cake: Tomorrow she’ll go to school with her head high. Tomorrow she’ll do her eyeliner just right and she won’t eat lunch. Tomorrow she won’t cry in the bathroom and she won’t hide from Bill Ponderosa and she won’t answer to the name Aluminum Monster. Tomorrow the ever-present revving engine inside her will slow down enough for her to be poised, kind, and calm. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow. 2000 words.

put a little love here in my void: On bad days, when Dennis has transformed from himself into a coiled spring of pure rage, the only thing that helps is to restrain him. 500 words.

I Feel So Proud When the Reckoning Arrives: In the aftermath of Charlie Rules the World, Dennis remains convinced that he is God and sets out to proselytize the gospel of himself. (incomplete) 4000 words.

tell me that you’re alright: “Mac,” Dennis said. “Do you ever miss having feelings?” 7600 words.

Den Bortkomne Sauen: When his friends ask how his layover in Fargo was, he doesn’t mention the sky or the snow or the rum or the beauty of feeling his entire body grow as numb as the rest of him. He simply says, “North Dakota changed me,” and lets them piece together the rest of the story for themselves. 1600 words.
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This will be sans the 'Checking In' series which I think deserves a post of its own.

I’ll Tell You My Sins and You Can Sharpen Your Knife: 30 kisses for Mac and Dennis. Incomplete.

22 Short Fics for Rhonda MacDonald: A character study. Part one of It’s Never Cloudy in Philadelphia.

you will be the death of me: The first step is cleaning the knife. She keeps a carving knife special for occasions like this, locked away in a drawer with her own psychological file. It shines when it’s unearthed, sharp, and rarely used, but Denise likes to clean it anyway. She likes to be able to see her reflection in the stainless steel blade. Part two of It’s Never Cloudy in Philadelphia.

Charlie Killed the Health Inspector: Charlie takes matters into his own hands when the health inspector, appalled by Paddy’s Pub’s terrible standards of cleanliness, attempts to shut down the bar. Unfortunately, this means that the gang now has to deal with hiding a dead body, evading the police, and trying not to kill each other as they process that they’ve murdered someone else.

The 'No Homo' series: A remarkable MacDennis series that explores how toxic masculinity interplays with internalized homophobia. . .just kidding it's Mac and Dennis fucking each other while trying to justify why it's not gay.

Rhonda Fights Gay Marriage and Denise Gets Divorced: Marriage goes to the forefront of everyone's minds when Rhonda runs into an old friend, Jaime, whose spouse is a woman. Rhonda sets out to save the institution; everyone else demonstrates why no one in the gang should go anywhere near a marriage certificate.

Dennis Reynolds: Power, Masochism, and the Nature of the Cumslut: "Kim, come here, I wrote you a three page treatise on why Dennis Reynolds is a cumslut."

Schrödinger's Kiss: If two guys kiss and no one talks about it, is it still gay?

after the last midtown show: Dennis and Mac kiss at midnight on New Year's Eve, 1993.

Dennis Reynolds, Queerness, and Toxic Masculinity: My long-awaited dissertation on why Dennis Reynolds is good queer representation.

I've Become So Numb: Dennis writes self-insert fanfiction about "Dan Rynolds" banging Patrick Bateman.

i feel numb most of the time: On her worst days, the ideas other people have about Denise Reynolds are all that keep her tethered to the notion that she is actually here.

swear to god the devil made me do it: Dennis slid his hand over to Mac’s, and squeezed it tight. “We don’t need to talk about this or analyze it too much. Let’s just. . .keep quiet for the rest of the night. Allow the moment to be what it is." A series of short fics about Mac and Dennis.

Dennis Reynolds: Not Crazy, Misunderstood: After letting some possibly damning details slip about my personal life, I have decided to engage with them rather than trying to cover them up. Mystery lends itself to filling in the gaps with ridiculous things. It is time to tell my story - feel grateful, dear followers, that you get to read this before the publication of my autobiography: Dennis Reynolds: How One Man Blossomed into a God.
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she’s the one that they call old whatsername: Newt’s first memory is her mother singing opera in the shower. Mozart echoes down the hallway to where she is playing with a plastic triceratops in her room The dinosaur is tearing up a town made out of Legos in time with the music. This sets a precedent for the rest of her life. Part one of Polaroids.

i eat boys up for breakfast and lunch: Five times Newt and Mako were friends or: it’s nice to have a sister in the Shatterdome. Part two of Polaroids.

The Letters of Najda Geiszler and Hedda Gottlieb: A story about two unreliable narrators told through coffee stained letters, snarky comments on academic papers, and Polaroid photographs captioned with a permanent marker. Or: how Newt and Hedda proved multiverse theory and then fell in love. WIP. Part three of Polaroids.

Dance With Me: Operation Pitfall fails. Two Jaegers go into the ocean, none leave, and a Category 5 Kaiju is on its way towards Hong Kong.
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it's our party: we can love who we want: GOB and Tony go to Pride.

Why Don't We Break the Rules Already?: When he moved downwards to blow GOB, the two long, thin scars revealed themselves, one on each thigh. Each extended from his crotch to his knee. It hadn’t occurred to Tony until this moment how “same” they might not be after all.

My Friends and I, We’ve Cracked the Code: GOB Bluth thinks he has all the answers after his encounter with Tony Wonder reveals to him that he’s gay. The answer is to be offensively flamboyant, and to have as much gay sex as possible to prove himself.

I’ll Follow You Until You Love Me: AU: GOB pays his dues to magic in his twenties by being Tony Wonder’s assistant. The rest is history. Multi-chaptered, currently incomplete.

Sinnerman, Where You Gonna Run To?: Maeby is on the run with her girlfriend from prison, Big Mamma. On their way to Las Vegas, they stop at a hotel for the night.

Some Nights I’m Scared You’ll Forget Me Again: Smoke curls inside GOB’s lungs, matching with the spiky feelings inside of him, like some bizarre Gothic Castle is growing in his heart. He’s sandwiched between something that’s telling him to stay and die a little older and the crushing force that follows him everywhere, telling him to run, telling him to drive fast and far, far away, telling him to fuck and smoke and gamble to escape the dark. - Character study: Bipolar GOB.

A Trick is Something a Whore Does For Money: Crossposted from the kink meme- GOB doesn’t just just drive the limo and do illusions for the entourage. He turns tricks as well.
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This is my masterpost of Community fic that I have written. I unfortunately orphaned some of the pornographic ones during a manic episode but they are all definitely mine!

Troy/Abed

Flip on a Switch and Everything's Fine: Abed wants Troy (his best friend) and Hilda (his girlfriend) to be friends. Neither of them like this one bit.

I Try and Just Kick It, But What Can I Do?: In which there are overnight astronomy field trips and Deep Questions that lead to a bisexual epiphany.

In Which Sex Pollen Made Them Do It: Troy and Abed roleplay a sex pollen scenario in the Dreamatorium.

Don’t Eat the Crab Dip: Abed’s nonchalant behavior in the face of competition is making Troy more than a little hot and bothered. In between school that day and the STD fair, Troy goes home to work off some steam in the shower. A fill in the blanks for The Politics of Human Sexuality.

No One Can Kill You if You Smile: The first time Troy runs into Abed, he’s in the ER with two dislocated shoulders. Abed wants his story. Episode remix of 4.12 (Heroic Origins).

we’ll put in a syncopation, and we’ll add a quarter note: Troy and Abed do a lot of weird things together, so it makes sense that the soundtrack of their life contains the most random music ever. And if most of those songs are from musicals-well, there are worse genres their life could be. Songfic Drabble Challenge: put an MP3 player on shuffle, and write for a half an hour to the songs that come up.

oh the snow, it sparkles so: It’s snowing in the early hours of the morning on the day that Troy gets married. Abed can’t quite figure out what it means. Part 1 of Snapshots of Life after Greendale. Companion piece to scioscribe’s Auteur Theory.

The Anecdote of Chasing the Location to Your Door: Troy and Abed see each other again years after graduation. Part 2 of Snapshots of Life after Greendale.

Whatever Happened to Tuesday and So Slow: 30 kisses for Troy and Abed. Currently incomplete.

Ok, Now I’m Really Mad: Post Paradigms of Human Memory Troy’s sexually frustrated from not touching himself all semester. Abed helps him out.

the place where you can still remember dreaming: Troy/Abed- Peter Pan Dreamatorium smut fusion. “Dreams do come true, if only we wish hard enough. You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it.” J.M. Barrie. Written for Porn Battle 2013.

how the others must see the faker: In which Troy and Abed watch Freaky Friday and accidentally end up switching bodies for a day.Written for Yuletide 2012.

This Has Been: “A Stupid Thought I Had to Share with All of You”: In which the folks from Greendale are in the Kickpuncher fandom and it causes about as much trouble as you’d expect.

Let’s Go Film the Sex Scene: Troy and Abed film the Kickpuncher sex scene.

they slip away across the universe: Abed accidentally gets turned into a half ghost.

The Proposal: Abed proposes while they rewatch Star Wars. Part one of #TroyandAbedGettingMarried

Invitations: Abed and Troy invite people to the wedding. Part two of #TroyandAbedGettingMarried

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It’s a Small World After All: The Study Group gets stuck on a ride at Disney World.

What If?: Prompt- Shirley, Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn’t be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn’t know that so it goes on flying anyway.

Advanced Felt Surrogacy: The truth of the matter was, they were silent because things had gone sour as they always had- in deeply weird and disturbingly sexual ways. Or: what if the reason everyone needed to open up in Intro to Felt Surrogacy was because they had all accidentally had an orgy in the woods.

the magic continues, and that’s good enough: Greendale is the crappiest wizarding school ever, but at least it’s all inclusive. These are some vignettes about Greendale and its students. Lengths, ships, and ratings will vary. Incomplete.

Studies in Contemporary Adulthood: Abed disassembles the Dreamatorium.


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 Hello Everyone!

I'm several years behind on posting my fanfiction to dreamwidth. While I won't post entire fics, I will crosspost titles and summaries individually and tag them properly with links to ao3. I no longer have a tumblr account so I will be operating from here (as well as from biohazard_girl on LJ) for the time being.

For an archived version of what I have been doing over the last several years, you can head over to anxiousdanegan.tumblr.com
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In honor of this wonderful announcement, I present this comment fic-athon. Let's fill her up with the prompts and fics! We all know we have ideas we've been saving up because of the hiatus, so let's let them out of the bag!

Rules:

1. One prompt per comment, but feel free to post as many prompts as your little heart desires.
2. Fill as many prompts as you want. Multiple fills are welcome!
3. The fills and prompts can be for anything - fanart, fanfic, vids, fanmixes, meta, etc. etc.
4. Please warn for triggering content in the subject line. Non-con, dub-con, underage, mental disorders, self-harm, suicide, graphic incest, and major character death should all be warned for. Use good judgement and courtesy, please.
5. Anonymous commenting is on, so feel free to fic and prompt on anon.
6. All ships, characters, and kinks are welcome and encouraged.

Have fun!!!
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Dear Yuletide Author,

Hi! I'm so excited that you've been matched with me for the Yule! This is my first time signing up for Yuletide proper, as I've only Pinch Hit before, and getting a gift sounds awesome! I hope my letter is informative enough for you to understand what my prompts are all about and to make writing it as fun for you as it will be for me to read it.

Likes: I love character studies to pieces. I love AU's and crossovers and fusions that really highlight parts of the characters that we don't usually see. I love comedy. If you make me laugh I'll love it, and if you throw in some dark comedy done well you get bonus points. I'm a sucker for unrequited and pining. I also love it when characters really get each other on some fundamental level, where each character in a relationship genuinely enjoys spending time with the other person. I also enjoy it when people explore the fucked up aspects of relationships, especially in a humorous way. I enjoy all sorts of porn, however I prefer that it's softcore if penises are involved. I'm 100% cool with open relationships, and in canons where characters are canonically portrayed as hypersexual it is aok and encouraged to continue portraying them that way after they're in a relationship.

Dislikes:
Outside of jokes, no hardcore kinks (bondage, scat, watersports, noncon, omegaverse, bestiality, hard underage, cruelty). No healing cock. No overly explicit gore. No melodrama unless it's played for laughs.
 
Fandoms


Arrested Development
Characters:
George Oscar 'Gob' Bluth, Tony Wonder
Pairings: 
George Oscar 'Gob' Bluth/Tony Wonder
Prompts:
I will truly be happy with anything you come up with for these two. They have stolen my heart past the point of no return. However, what I want most out of a fic is a story where GOB explores his sexuality post Cinco de Cuatro, deciding he's flamingly gay, embracing every stereotype to the point of being offensive, and missing the mark because he's actually bisexual. I want GOB trying way too hard, sleeping around with lots of guys, dressing in swishy bright colors, just even outgaying Tony. But he knows that that's not quite right either, and eventually he and Tony figure themselves out together. Incorporation of the rest of the Bluth clan and their reactions (or non-reactions) to his outlandish behavior is encouraged but obviously not required. Double bonus points if this includes Steve Holt and Ann.

ETA (11/03/13): I have been considering writing this story for quite some time, so I have decided to start playing around with it on my own. Please feel free to keep doing your thing with the prompt if you are matched to me on Arrested Development, however keep in mind that if you do not feel comfortable writing a similar story to me, I would also be happy with any of the GOB/Tony prompts on here (http://ad-kink.livejournal.com/811.html#comments) that also fit my likes that I list above, particularly the ones that I have prompted myself. Thank you!

Agents of Cracked
Characters:
Michael Swaim (Agents of Cracked), Daniel O'Brien (Agents of Cracked)
Pairings: 
Michael Swaim (Agents of Cracked)/Daniel O'Brien (Agents of Cracked)
Prompts:
This pairing is one of my OTPs for life. I love their twisted little relationship and how passionate it is. I would like post-canon fic, anything you can come up with. I've read some already, but I just can't get enough. Tell me your version of what Dan and Michael have been up to since flying off into the sunset in a hot air balloon, because I'm sure that it's been fucked up and awesome.

Let's Go to Prison
Characters: Barry (Let's Go to Prison), Nelson Biederman IV
Pairings: Barry (Let's Go to Prison)/Nelson Biederman IV
Prompts: I'm so sad that no fic for this pairing exists, because I think it's wonderful and sweet. Anything filling in their courtship in prison during the time where John is in solitary would be lovely. What is their first time like? How does Nelson come to fully realize he's in love? What's with the goatee? Goofy schmoop is encouraged, wrapped of course in a thin layer of dark humor.

Velvet Goldmine
Characters:
Brian Slade, Curt Wild
Pairings: 
Brian Slade/Curt Wild
Prompts:
This pairing is really interesting. I want to see more of it from Curt Wild's perspective- what being queer is like for him, what the relationship means to him, and whether he's in love with Brian or the idea of Brian. We know a lot more about Slade himself  while only being given tantalizing hints about Curt's very tumultuous life and how he expresses himself and his sexuality through creation and destruction. I would really like that expanded on.

WALL-E
Characters:
WALL-E, EVE
Pairings: 
WALL-E/EVE
Prompts:
You can do so much with this movie. I really love it; it's my favorite ever. What I want most is very little focus on the humans and a lot of focus put on the robots. How did WALL-E or EVE gain sentience? Why is Hello Dolly WALL-E's favorite thing? What is life like for WALL-E and EVE after they come back to earth? Seriously, as long as you do a lot of focus on WALL-E or EVE or them as a couple and what that's like for robots I'll be happy.


Thanks so much for writing for me!

Biohazardgirl
 
 
 
 
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 Exactly what it says on the tin. Anything below is subject to revision etc.

It's Arrested Development. . . )
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Fandom: Community

Title: Invitations

Pairing: Abed/Troy

Summary: Troy and Abed invite people to the wedding. Part 2 of #TroyandAbedGettingMarried.

Rating: T


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